Words and hearts should be handled with care for words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair.

back from my dental and phychiatrist appointment.
can my life get any better ? found out that my teeth allightment totally off track.
so need to re-operate again. and guess what? it's come with a package.
i dont remember bout having internal brain damage.but yes. it's already confirmed that am going to have my neurosurgery.
reason ? i had head trauma. hemorrhages to exact. huu. later what operation plak eh ? HAHA
seriously. i just want the doctor to pluck a device into me. like something that can erase memory or what. sakit oh living with memories.
don't let it be the 2nd time i extend because of her.please dear god.
had enough of misery.really i do.sometimes i don't know my self i can pull the strength to go on.
i can only just smile.but do people know what is running into my mind,body ? it's like a typhoon inside.
it's going 3 months already.mind already said NO but why heart still want to go on?
enough please heart.that girl already don't care about you.even if you die infront of her,would she notice that? she's blinded with the sacrifices u have done.
tak sanggup menanggu derita :').
i never ever do this to you. never. even if we fought. only lasted 2 days. but now. it's going full 3 month.
oh my. oh my..where are your promises ? your words ?
remember you promises that you will be there ? that even your self questioned. how can i be so nice to you in the 1 untul 3rd week? it's because i care about you. how you cried and needed my tlc. god.
i dont know if i can make it till this friday. perhaps this wednesday i'll be going to my hometown..TOO DAMN MUCH TOO PAIN TO HANDLE in here.
it's ramadhan mah.no need to post picture u hug here hug this. even we never had that kind of pictures.
heart? smashed to trilion pieces. i dont know how to go on. people already said this,doctor already said that.and i've done all.but yet.yet..still never heal.
ya allah :'). Ya allah :)