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waking up crying. slept at 4 am and wake up around 6.30.i forgot to eat my periton. and i would like to tell you that i still love you,sayang,cinta and rindu you :). pelik ? yes RJ,maybe i gila kat you.semalam i marah sampai tak terhingga.tapi pagi mcm ni. wow,sweetnye i :P. entah la.idk why is happening to me.makin lame makin worse.makin tenat. do you know i sakit? haha. anyone have "forget" pills? i want it. tak larat nak hidup mcm ni :').dear god.im being this strong for this long.idk if i dont have iman inside me.i takut sangat if one day i kalah or go suicide or what. :'(.

and how i wish i would have a conversation like this:

"bie,sayang minta maaf,sayaang dah sedar and sayang tahu siapa sebenar bie,i promise to fix u,fix us and try to fix everything." awww,i'm craving this one much more than arai okada or coverset m1 gogo.haha
let it be a dream that one that,i should forget :')