tired

am really tired and so damn exhausted fighting my own feelings.
idk how many times i'm breaking,shattered. but still,i can smile.
people always say shit stuffs. please oh please,try to fit in my shoes.
it's not i'm not trying or what.i'd tried my best.
not strong enough? dah mati hidup balik,ive seen my best dude died infront of me,kena gang bang kat rugby room,my body full of tattoos from fights.not strong enough? what a bloke.
now,just go on with the flow. am tired.am so damn exhausted.