I try to hold myself together every single day. I try to put a smile on my face even though I just want to frown. I try to laugh and act like nothing is wrong. I try to go out as much as possible when I really just want to lay in bed and gather all of my thoughts. I try to put on a happy front just so no one can see that I’m really a mess inside. I am a walking wreck but I try not to make it obvious.