i deserve you.
after all the shits,up and down.
seriously.

-sincerely,
the heart

suddenly i remember this event.
at home where i was sitting playing Football Manager 2010.
then come in ibu and ayah. while im busy playing then a pair of hands gripped my neck from behind.
suddenly i felt damp.
then when i look up.mum was crying and said.
"abg dah banyak lalui.abg dah banyak bersabar.insyaalah,ada ganjaran dari tuhan"
i dont know what to respond but i only can throw a smile only.
yea.my family were my back bone since day 1.
dear mum. i know your heart was devastated when i was excident and i have internal injuries.
and now.i've consumed those 12 pcm,cough syrup,periton and what so ever. i dont know how can you take it.but as soon that you heard that im being hospitallized. you rush from your work to hospital and the first thing you said. "abg tak sayang ibu ? kenapa abg buat macam ni"
mum.really.i wanted to cry out loud to you.i just wanted to say. "bu,abg dah x tahan lagi"
but no,what shall i do if i said those words? confirm she will ask me to quit study like previous month..ah..life..have to go on.even half alive.