well peeps,ive lost it all now.
.ive lost a friend of mine from part one.who are like a brother to me.
.ive lost the faith of my parents.and im really sorry if i hurted you mum.i know you are so sad me turning like this.
.ive lost my wave I.
.ive lost the courage to deal with this world.
.ive lost my appetite to eat now..ive lost the sense of humour.
.ive lost my sleep gift. at 2am i wake up.at 4 i wake up.
.ive lost the ability to crack jokes.
.ive lost my night life.
.ive lost the sense to be happy in the morning. going into bed or waking up from bed is a challenge for me.
.ive lost the pursue of my dreams.
.ive lost the ability to get dreams in my sleep.
.ive lost 16Kg for the past month.
.ive $,from uss>bali>pangkor.trying to get rid of this feeling.it only a sum.dont care.
.ive lost my self consciousness and ability to judge.
.ive lost faith to mankind.
.ive lost a bestfriend who i can talk to always.
.ive lost my one and only babygirl :').
.ive lost RJ. but i swear to god.i wont quit :),i wont quit for you baby girl.
you may call me crazy or what.but this how i feel.it just to far away from being happy.yea,maybe i'm being unhappy.all my friends,family already told me the cold harsh truth.i'll be frank to you. recovering from my excident is way beyond painful.i can't eat anything except porridge.and the only way to eat that porridge is by using straw,cause your mouth have been sealed tight with those medical ropes.you cant even open your mouth.it have to be shut cause scared if it was wide open,my alligtments of teeth will fall apart.it will cause permanent damage to my mouth and teeth.i cant even talk,i only can write that time.till one day my mum cried cause see the misery that i have to put thru.after the operation? i almost hit the doctor cause everyday,u have to take 6 shots of medicine.everyday for 2 week i've been shotted with needles.only god knows how i felt that time.but this time.this heartbreak is a lot more painful than those excident. it lasted almost 2 months RJ.2 months of misery i swallow.i screamed,cried,histeric.i'm so broken inside.the way you treat me for the past 2 months its like you treat me like a garbage.if you need me,you will call me.if not.you'll torture me with that boy,your cousin. love huh? :') can you imagine if you are in that hospital with me.now u're not.but still,this heart of mine don't stop loving you RJ.its like i have some unfinished things.its like my body wont move.my heart feels like wanna explode.can't stop thinking.ive tried all RJ.all..god.give me strength to face this obstacle :')