Why? Because unlike the others, I actually care about you, from the deepest depth of my heart. I actually want to see you smile. I actually care about what you have to say. If you pull back, I’ll try my very best to pull you back in. I’m not going to play stupid games, I’ll be honest and straight up. If you ever need me, I’ll be there for you no questions asked.
I walked into your life with the best of my intentions and I’m not going anywhere. Test me and watch me stand my ground and I’ll be the one who will always stick around.like you've said. you dont want someone to be like your dad.your 2nd exes that her family doesn't approve you. your 3rd exes that just dump you for another girl. i tried so hard to avoid this kinda attitudes towards you. really damn hard,which is myself don't know how i can do it. but,yeah,u're being like them. an example that should follow. just you're so blinded with your life now. who's the victim ? you can think that. we,human.learn from mistake. not make that mistakes as a repretive manner.
I’m not trying to sound conceited nor am I trying to sound self absorbed. I’m just speaking honestly and truthfully. No one would understand you in the unique way that I do. No one would EVER, in their right mind put up with your bullshit that way that I do. No one would ever love you in the crazy and unconditional way that I love you. No one would ever come close to the person I am when it comes to you. You can try to replace me, you can try to forget about me but always keep that in mind. Always remember, no one else could ever take my place, no one else could ever do my job better.
I was raised to believe that there’s no such thing as ‘too’ much regarding someone you truly care about. Doing ‘too’ much doesn’t exist because it’s obvious that person is worth it.
But lately somewhere along the lines of waiting, putting in ALL of my effort and trying to devote time for you.. I got tired. Not because you’re not worth it because believe me, you are worth it and then some. But because mainly, I’m tired of feeling unappreciated, tired of not being acknowledged and tired of feeling like my effort goes no where.. I admit, it hurts. Only because when I meet you halfway, you just leave me stranded
Remember who has always been there to pick you up when you have fallen. Remember who has always put up with your bullshit. Remember who has always put up with your confusing and flustering ways. Remember who has always sincerely cared about you. Remember who has always been there for you when everyone else walked out. Yeah, it was me. Please don’t forget.
I treat you like you’re important and you treat me as if I’m nothing.And to me, that’s unexceptable. It makes no sense at all for me to put in my effort when majority of the time you don’t seem to give a damn. You mean a lot to me so of course, it’s a natural instinct for me to treat you like you’re important to me. So when you treat me as if I’m nothing, it literally makes me feel like I am.
But you know what, that’s okay. I’m done wasting my time on someone who’s clearly conflicted with the definition of important and unimportant. So when I’m gone, I hope it kills you in an emotional state. And when you start to figure out the difference between important and unimportant. I won’t be there to spare you any pity. I’ll be long gone because I already knew the difference from the very beginning
I don’t do second option. You either choose me or you lose me. Yes, I’ll wait but don’t you ever think you can keep me waiting around forever. If you don’t appreciate and realize what you have right infront of your face then I’m sure as hell that out of the other billions of people in this world, I will eventually find someone who will.
Don’t get used to the fact that I’m always here because once I’m gone, believe me when I say I’m done. I don’t need anyone in my life who doesn’t even know how to appreciate or respect me :')
for the past month. been missing you like crazy,tortured with you. destroyed by you. you've commited suicide attemps. look now who's following you ? 12 pcm,3 periton, 1/2 cough syrup. who'd always talked sense of life into you at the past ? when i take you seriously that u're ill with this thingy.i'd be there for real. i never ran away. but when that thing is passed down to me. where are you? chicken out? how to move on if you seal noby? one way i want to move on. how i want to go on if this thing if keep haunting me ? good.life's a karma. i won't be suprised if people would do more of this crap to you if this is the way you treat people. people that fought for you. but look. where are you now? it's not a suprise how can people easily erase you. but why still there piece of love ? isn't love is divine ? so after love and love. you find new love? for god sake. what are you ? hehs,up to you. may you live happily then :)